Spiritual Sunday "This Little Light of Mine"

Spiritual Sundays are hosted by two awesome people...Charlotte and Ginger. To join in just post and then add your name at http://bloggerspirit.blogspot.com/

"There is not enough darkness in all the world to put out the light of even one small candle." Robert Alden

When I was a kid...I couldn't talk. I was too afraid...I held my breath... too scared to let my guard down...to scared to trust that I wouldn't get hurt.  I withdrew....and lived in a make believe world. One day I invented a friend - a street light.. When I'd drive up to it...it always turned green just for me and when it was red...it was because it wanted me to stay and talk. That traffic light helped me hang on....helped me get through some pretty dark times. Funny thing - I have another Friend who is a Light....He's my best friend....just like that traffic light was - only differnce - He's for real. Now all I want to do is shine this little light of mine....

Spiritual Sunday "Just As I Am"

I am really grateful to Charlotte and Ginger for hosting these awesome Spiritual Sundays. To join in...post and add your name at http://bloggerspirit.blogspot.com/
 
For so long I tried to change....to twist msyelf into what others wanted me to be...people telling me that I should be a certain way...act in ways they wanted....be anything other than who I was....professionals demanding I conform to some program...that would make me who they believed would be better...more acceptable.....But all it did was make me angry...frustrated....feeling more lost...more alone....wanting to fight....to push back....Then one day He touched me. He never asked me to change....never insisted I be anything but who I was....He told me to come...to come to Him....just as I am......

Thankful Thursday

Today....I trust ...I know... He's there...in my corner...like He's been in everything...I know...He won't ever let me down...so I whisper thank you:

1. For His presence that's always with me. 
2. For holding me when I'm scared and never letting go.
3. For never forcing me to go beyond where I'm able but waiting until I'm ready.
4. For His gentleness that always gives me assurance that things will work out ok.
5. For creating a safe place for me to fall....in Him.

Still Thankful...

Sonya has taken a blogging break so for now won't be doing Thankful Thursdays. I want to post anyways....because He lives....because He fills my heart.....takes away the fear....takes away the doubts....the anger....the hurts....the sadness - and fills me with hope. Trusting Him, having Him in my corner does something to me that nothing else can.....

Mary at http://asplendidadventure.blogspot.com/ paints. In her last post....her picture of a heart with red lines falling through it and the word Life written across.....shouts to me of God's heart...the blood of Christ....His death....for my sins....giving life. 

Today....I'm thankful for life....for freedom....for His Light that shines in the darkness....for Him giving my life a purpose.....and most of all....for God showing me I have value and worth.

Spiritual Sunday "Jesus Loves You."

I love these Spiritual Sundays. Charlotte and Ginger - you guys are the best for hosting this. Want to join in? Post and add your name at  http://bloggerspirit.blogspot.com/


What made the difference in my life....what touched me in a way nothing else could...what finally changed  me......turned my life around....freed me from the darkness...was the touch of His amazing love. He freed me...broke the chains - reached so far down to pull me out. And even when I couldn't accept His love...He stayed....He waited until I was ready...He overlooked my wild out of control destructive behaviour. He never gave up on me....never turned away.  When I shook my fist in the air daring Him to kill me..He waited...He stayed....until I was ready. He accepted me at my worst...and loved me just because....

Spiritual Sunday. "More"

Thank-you Charlotte and Ginger for doing these Spiritual Sundays. It helps me focus on what God is doing in my life and I love to read what He's doing in the lives of others. Anyone wanting to participate post what's on your heart and then add your name @http://bloggerspirit.blogspot.com/

All week my girls kept asking what I wanted for Christmas. I couldn't come up with anything. I had no idea what I wanted. When we were in the stores today, my oldest kept pointing out stuff ....but I didn't see anything I really needed or even wanted. 
It finally dawned on me - I have what I really want: my family, my friends and most of all - God. My daughter's words keep going over in my head. "tell me what you want or what you want more of."


What I want - what I really need - is more of Him. The touch of His gentle love makes me strong. It gives me hope - fills me with courage - calms me down - And makes me really happy.  
I know what I want - I want more of Him.   

For This Reason

 He let me live. ...He wouldn't let me go. Friends around me were dying, taking their own lives or through accidently overdosing....But He kept pushing me forward - I resisted. I fought. I didn't trust.....But He waited - stood beside me patiently -never forcing me. He made me strong. Now I have to give back  - back to the One who touched me with the power of His gentleness - the power of His touch....on my life. I owe Him. Had it not been for His gentle touch....I would not have survived....... 

Spiritual Sunday "It's Time."

I want so much to be all that He called me to be. I feel horribly inadequate most of the time, but I'm moving forward. I owe Him. I owe Him my life. This past year, I've written what He did, where He brought me from, what nothing else could to do....the freedom, the hope - Only Jesus could take this Jewish girl and make her fly..I never told the horrible things that happened, how I lived, how much I looked to death as a way of obtaining the peace I desperately sought....My book, In the Eye of Deception will be published mid November. I am still afraid of people in my world knowing how awful and bad it was....but my desire to show the touch of His gentleness...the awesomeness of Who He is...what He can do.....is greater than all my fears. It's time.....It's time to tell. Time to show His power....Time to let go of the shame, the secrets.....I've been trying to set up a website if anyone wants to check it out. Any comments or feedback woutd be so appreciated as it's still under construction. Guys, have a Christ centred weekend.  http://www.gentlerecovery.webs.com.

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