Thursday, May 26, 2016

Thankful Thursday - The Journey

"No one escapes the wilderness on the way to the promised land." Annie Dillard.

There were times I hung around life....waiting....desperate for things that never seemed to happen. I held onto hope even when it seemed  impossible for things I yearned for to become reality. 

I mopped around, and languished in the belief that the things I ached for, home, family, peace - were for others, not for me. Simple things. Everyday things. Things nevertheless I hungered to have with all my heart.

The wilderness, the times of emptiness and longing had purpose though. I see it now. It was a place to pass through to get to where I wanted. 

I've discovered there's a beauty in the wilderness and lessons to be learned, lessons that have never left me.

 The most important is gratitude. Making it through left me with tremendous gratitude - gratitude for the small stuff, the everyday, the sun rising and setting, the sweet smell of grass and trees and flowers, the smile on a stranger's face, the kindness of those I meet everyday.

And having trekked the wilderness taught me to let go of certain things and also to trust. The tough times don't last forever. They are only a stopover place. 

A friend used to tell me all the time, 'this too shall pass.' I didn't believe it then, but I know it to be true today.

Have an amazing Thursday, Guys. 

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Thankful Thursday - Scars

"To be alive at all is to have scars." J.D. Salinger. 

We all have them - scars on our bodies, or invisible ones on our soul. Scars that got there because of hurt, pain or some horrible mistake we made. 

Scars that once left deep imprints and caused tremendous angst and shame, now simply remind of us what was.....a time past.....of what we fought, made it through, overcame. 

Scars that have become marks of victory over things we once believed would bring us down. 

Scars are proof we survived. 

We overcame the tough stuff and lived to tell the tale. Those scars reminders every day, if we could make it through those horrors, and devastation, we are able to make it through whatever else comes our way. 

Happy Thursday, Guys.

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Thankful Thursday - Difference

"Fear, to a great extent, is born of a story we tell ourselves, and so I chose to tell myself a different story from the one women are told. I decided I was safe. I was strong. I was brave. Nothing could vanquish me.  Cheryl Strayed. 

I used to run on fear. Fear colored everything I did or didn't do.  I didn't feel safe in the world, or strong. Definitely not brave. 

And then something happened. A touch of love - love that stayed, love that refused to give up, love that showed me a different way. 

Because of that love, fear slowly shifted to faith. Faith that I can, Faith that I will. Faith that I am safe and strong and brave. Faith trumped the dance of fear. 

Today I know, I can do anything. That love is still there, championing me on.....whispering every day, you can, you will, you're safe and strong and brave. 

Grateful for love that persisted and turned the darkness into light. 

Happy Thursday, Guys.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Thankful Thursday - Beauty.

It was such a pleasure to sink one's hands into the warm earth, to feel at one's fingertips the possibilities of the new season.  Kate Morton. 

I love love love the smell of the earth and planting tiny little nothings and then waiting and watching them turn into brilliant colour and awesome beauty. 

I'm always amazed at how that actually something so small and seemingly insignificant can become something that takes my breath away. 

Spring gardening  - all the hard work equals incredible joy - seeing everything slowly come back to life in all its brilliant beauty. Reminds me of life, especially healing from life's hurts - put in the hard work, then wait and watch and BABAM - beauty from the darkness. 

Happy Thursday, Guys.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Thankful Thursday - Legacy.

"What you leave behind is not what is engraved in stone monuments but what is woven into the lives of others." Pericles. 

My neighbour's daughter came over yesterday. She stood at the door crying. I knew right away - her 96 year old mom had died in the night. "She was my best friend. What am I going to do without her." 

Her words slipped inside me - Her mother was an amazing woman - kind, gentle, caring and always chatty. She had wanted to stay in her own home and her daughters accommodated her. They came everyday to take her out, have supper with her, laugh and chat, and ensure she was happy and content. Her grandkids came too. They mowed the grass, took out the garbage, shoveled snow. 

She left her family with an remarkable legacy - that of love and respect. And for me, knowing her and her family has been an honour. She unknowingly taught me some huge lessons - moms love, respect, appreciate and become best buds with their kids by simply being human and kind. 

I'll miss amazing lady but her legacy lives even in me - When I'm old and my kids are all grown up with families of their own, I hope they too will speak of me like my neighbour's daughters do of her. 

Happy Thursday, Guys. 

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Thankful Thursday - Story

“Every human being has a fascinating existence, with a big cast of good and evil characters in each. And almost always, somewhere along the way, magic.”  Lucinda Riley. 

I love hearing people's life stories...where they've been, what they've done....things they hoped for, things they've lost, what they've overcome, the tough times and the scary. 

But the best is hearing about the amazing, the magical...long held dreams finally fulfilled, second chances given when everything seemed hopeless, new discoveries that infused them with purpose and passion.

Listening to others tell what life has been to them, is a huge reminder to me that all of us have a story make up of bits of darkness, and bits of glorious. Another reason to live kind.

Happy Thursday, Guys.