Thursday, January 15, 2015

Thankful Thursday. - Beliefs

"You are amazing as you are. 
Stronger than you know. 
More beautiful than you think. 
Worthier than you believe. 
More loved than you can ever imagine. 
Passionate about making a difference.  
Be confident. Be you." 
Tia Sparkles Singh.

Beliefs are what shape us. I think they fuel how we live, what we do, how we move in the world. 

I used to believe I was a nothing, worthless, a total loser. It took a long time but I finally learned I was believing a lie. That lie felt so much like the truth. I ran on those beliefs. And almost killed myself with them. 

I've been mentoring someone, a girl a few years older than my daughter. She's where I wild, on the edge, out of control. I see the old me in her, the me who tried to outrun the shame, the pain, the hate. But I also see the girl who is itchy to be free...who craves an easier happier life. My goal - help her see the real her, just below the surface, the gift she really is. 
Grateful for....

-freedom - it's for everyone not just a select few. 
-the past - gave me firsthand insight to help someone else make it. 
-people who stepped into my world and helped me realize the opposite of everything I knew. Their kindness softened the rough edges and made a huge impact. 
-Mostly that He was there, in the dark places, and the scary ones, never giving up on me when so many others did. He hung in, stayed the course, until I was ready, and even today....He's still there, running the course with best friend, a constant, an anchor to hold onto. 

Happy Thursday, Guys.


Sandi@ Rose Chintz Cottage said...

Hi Nikki,
God doesn't make worthless human beings. He has a plan for each one of us. We may start out feeling worthless and insignificant but if we allow Him to, He can change us into the person He wants us to be. What a blessing you are to this young lady! Thanks for your inspiring post today.

Blessings & hugs,

Daisy said...

This is a wonderful and inspiring post today, Nikki. You are a kind and generous person to be mentoring someone who needs a helping hand and some guidance. Bless you for all the good you bring to the world.

Joy said...

You inspired me already with the quote and the rest is really uplifting. Be reminded that there are lots of things to be thankful about!

Crown of Beauty said...

I love the quote and the photo, and the post is just so meaty and nourishing. Your painful past has not gone to waste, instead it has been exactly what Joseph said to his brothers, that the enemy meant it for evil, but God meant it for good. Love your posts, Nikki. Have an awesome 2015. I treasure the gift of your friendship.

Margie said...

I am so glad to know there are special people like you in the world Nikki, you do good!
May the good Lord always bless and keep you!

Launna said...

Dearest Nikki... I had that revelation about myself the end of last year... I was out of control with trying to numb the pain so that I didn't have to feel and I realized that no amount of numbing was making me happy...

I made the decision to go back to church and I am praying continually that I will follow Him and find out what my real purpose is... with this, I have to feel the pain but at least I am looking for ways to deal with it in a healthy way... Have a blessed week xox