Thanks Charlotte and Ginger for always hosting these awesome Spiritual Sunday
I heard someone say fear can be a motivator...that it can help push you to do the thing you're afraid to do. Not me....fear does the opposite. It pushes me to run....hide....give up. Sometimes it's powerful grip squeezes so tight I slip into into a place of feeling desperate. I become so immobilized that I can't think straight or do anything that makes any sense.
I used to run on fear....it used to colour my world dark....black and left me feeling hopeless and in a constant state of panic.
Next week I have to give my first speech at Toastmaster's...an ice breaker...a 5-7 minute talk. Not a long time.....but for someone who'se only spoken for 29 seconds....it's like having to speak for an hour. I've always struggled with being seen.....and being heard.
But I refuse to move on fear anymore. I refuse to allow it's hold to dictate what I do or don't do in life. I'm determined to stand up....not give in.... not buckle. I'm determined to move towards where my heart pulls and it's in speaking and telling my story. I want to show hope to others who are where I was.....I don't want to hide anymore.
Fear vs.courage. I choose courage. And I've got my faith to hold onto ...faith that's become my anchor....Knowing He's in my corner....that I'm not alone.....I can do this!!!
...if I can see it I can do it...if I believe ...there's nothing to it..