In My Daughter's Eyes

Linking up with Charlotte and Ginger at Spiritual Sunday

"There are places in the heart you don't even know exist until you love a child"

Anne Lamott

I've been watching the Casey Anthony trial....the 25 yr. old mom charged with the murder of her two year old. It's hard to believe Casey is seen partying...having fun....uncaring.....even though she hadn't seen her daughter for 31 days. And seeing the pictures of the beautiful little girl..knowing that her life was taken....breaks my heart. 

It makes me think of my own two daughters and my love for them - I would give my life for theirs in a heartbeat. They’re what changed me....and gave me back my life. There was a time I couldn’t feel love.....I ran from it but when I had my girls.....something changed. Everything in me.....wanted to protect them....for them to never go through any of what I had. I wanted them to live differently....happy....easy....safe. I didn't have a mother....sister....or anyone to show me how to raise them.....how to be a mom......I just moved by instinct....I just wanted to give them what I never got. 

Friends used to tell me when my girls became teens, they would get mouthy...rebellious...hateful. My oldest is 15, my youngest is soon turning 11. The bond between us is tighter than ever. We spend time together....and talk about everything. And something I do that no one ever did for me.....I tell them everyday how awesome they are and that whatever their dreams are....I'll be in their corner cheering them on. Being a mom was God's way of showing me how much He really loved me....He gave me the best gift ever!


In my daugther's eyes.....I am a hero....

Every Mother's Prayer

Thanks Charlotte & Ginger for being here every week and hosting  Spiritual Sunday

"...love as powerful as your mother's for you leaves it's own mark...to have been loved so deeply, even though the person who loved us is gone, will give us some protection forever." J.K. Rowling

My kids often express their love for me. They never come into the house or wake up from sleep or go to bed without running in to kiss me and tell me how much they love me. And I do the same. 

When they were younger....I used to wonder if they would be better off with a different kind of mom....a mom who was freer.....who didn't have so many fears... who knew how to cook....who decorated with flair.....and who went on all the school trips.
 
But I've always loved my girls. I've wanted to be to them what no one was to me. I tell them all the time I'm proud of them...that they're the best...and the best that's ever happened to me. I tell them no matter what they do....or what they believe....or what they think...I'll always be there in their corner....and love them.

I tell them they're perfect just the way they are....they don't need to change or twist themselves into being anyone other than themselves....and I tell them they can reach for the stars....whatever stars they want and they can make their dreams come true.. And I tell them everyday they shine.

I think He loved me enough to give me these two awesome kids......for me to give them what I never got....to love them in ways I never was by my parents. I think it's Him showing me redemption.... for everything I lived...the years on the street....fighting to survive all the pain.....

My kids and their love for me is an experession of His love to me...He loved me enough to give us to each other...Redemption for all that pain and hard stuff..

Happy Mother's Day!

 
I pray You'll be my eyes.....and watch her where she goes...and help her to be wise...and help me to let go....every mother's prayer...